Why I Started Blogging

I wanted to write this post because I think that between the favourites posts and all the reviews, it's easy to get lost as to why I started to blogging. I've recently been feeling a bit down about my blog and I guess writing this post is a way of reminding myself why I decided to start LivinginMakeup. 

As most of you know, I've had M.E for nearly five years and left school because of it after my GCSE's, about 4 years ago. After I left, I had nothing to do because I wasn't well enough to do anything. After looking at reviews for a curling iron and discovering the online beauty community, my love of beauty was born. Since then it has flourished and after a year of reading blogs and watching beauty videos on Youtube, I decided to create LivinginMakeup. I knew it would be tough due to my limitations with my health, but I wanted to take the plunge.

Not being able to have a normal life because of something outside of your control is tough. Having this blog has almost been like therapy for me. It allows me to express myself and helps my world be less about my illness and more about what I want my life to be. I've learnt so much in my year and a half of blogging. Not just the practical stuff, but also about myself. I'm a lot stronger than I thought I was. I don't want to sound arrogant or full of myself, but when you're in an immense amount of pain and are so tired that eating cereal is exhausting,  posting consistently on a blog all by yourself is a huge achievement. I think I need to remind myself of that. As I mentioned, I've been a bit down about my blog because I haven't achieved what I wanted to. Last year, I was gaining more followers etc. This year I feel it's slowed down a bit. I wanted to reach 300 followers by Christmas which isn't realistic any more. I know it's not about followers or page views, but I'm human. When things don't go a certain way, I feel bad.

I love my blog and I guess what I'm trying to say is that I started blogging for me. It wasn't for page views or for a following count. It was to create something positive for myself when I was at my lowest. I think I've lost sight of that and I'm hoping that this post will help me get back on track. There's something cathartic about writing a post like this and I'm going to try not to get bogged down with the numbers. Blogging is something I love and I will continue to do it for as long as I can.

Thanks for reading, 
Avani 
xoxo