My life completely changed when I became unwell with ME/CFS. Going to university wasn't an option, completing my A Levels wasn't an option. Going out was pretty much not an option. I was stuck in my house with nothing to do because my body was basically broken. Nearly 7 years later, I'm so grateful for that.
If it weren't for my invisible illnesses, I would not be the person I am today. There is no way I would have discovered my love of makeup and absolutely no way I would have started blogging. With nothing but I time, I discovered so much about myself. I know exactly what I want out of life. I'm extremely grateful for that. My life was so out of focus before I became unwell. It was all about school and exams and getting into university. Those things are really not important in the grand scheme of things. It took loosing them to realise that.
I'm grateful for having my mental health issues too. Having OCD and anxiety has taught me so much about how to deal with stress and life. I'm constantly learning, but at the end of the day, I know all these experiences are making me into a better person. I like to think that I've always been a pretty accepting person, but having invisible illnesses has made me even more accepting. It's so true that you really don't know what someone is going through. Just because you can't see someones pain, doesn't mean it's not there.
At 22 years old, I've been through more than most adults but those experiences (good and bad) are what make me who I am. And for the most part, I like who I am. Sure, I hate that my OCD dictates my life, and I want to punch my anxiety in the face, and the ME really does piss me off, but it's those things that have changed my life for the better. They've turned a shy little girl, into a confident woman. As difficult as it's been, the past 7 years have been a blessing.
Avani
xoxo
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